Collective sins / indemnity conditions "still" works

Vienna, November 2006

Dear All,
I like to share a testimony which deals about indemnity conditions in terms of collective sins, which occurred in my family 10 years ago.

I guess you still know when I wrote to the list, that my family had a car accident in Poland in 1996 That year I attended with my wife a 40 days workshop with Heung Jin Nim and Dae Mo Nim. in Chung Pyung. At the end of the 40-day, I picked up the National Messiah ship for the Philippines. Before I was missionary in Russia from 1992 until 1996.
After I returned to Russia we prepared for the new mission in the Philippines. On the way to Germany, in Poland by a mini bus my wife with our 3 small children got hurt in a serious car accident.
One passenger got immediately killed. The driver got very serious injured. Our youngest daughter Eleonora (that time 4 years) got seriously injured too, and fell in coma. Doctors in the hospital told me she may not recover anymore, and might not survive at all. I saw my 4-year-old daughter on life saving instruments. I felt so much pain I might loose her. I had to cry. I contacted Dae Mo Nim in Korea and explained what had happened to may family. After 3 days our daughter Eleonora woke up. Doctors and nurses in the hospital said this was a miracle that my daughter survived. Later on I found out Dae Mo Nim had sent good angels to help my daughter to survive. When I asked my daughter what she had experienced in her coma she said: "I have seen strong lights all the time". I believe angel must have performed surgery on her inside injured organs, and that why my daughter got well.

The last 10 years I have been struggling a lot, why this had happened to our family. I was a 21 years missionary and I faced a couple of time a life and death situation. My question I had to God was: why did you allow this to happen?
My injured wife and daughter had to fly from Warsaw to Vienna by a special ambulance plane. We had no money. The far had cost 8000 US$. My mother in Frankfurt called up the European/German HQ and asked for some money from the Church. But the leadership there declined to give even one cent. In Russia where I worked for 4 years also declined to help my injured wife and daughter to fly to a Vienna hospital.

Thanks God, the family members in Austria gave me a donation of 3000 US$ and with donations from my own family in Germany and my wife’ folks we could finally get the money together for the ambulance airplane.
Today, perhaps I can call it additional indemnity condition on the top of the fatal car accident we have been paying.

During my 4 years in Russia I had strong intuition I might loose one day my family in an accident. In August of 1996 the accident occurred in Poland, just before crossing the German border. This happened while I travelled separately to Vienna.
Reaching Vienna I got a phone call from the Poland Church that my whole family is in the hospital. I wasn’t surprised, because I had before that strong intuition something will happen to my family. Of course, I was shocked and in tears what did happen. It was just 3 weeks ago when I left Chung Pyung with a high spirit.
3 weeks ago I saw the movie "Schindler’s list". I have heard of this movie often but for some reason I didn’t see it. As you know I’m German and I knew to well what we Germans did in WW II, committing atrocities and genocide against the Jewish people. Whenever I see movies relating to the Holocaust, I’m always to tears. The question always comes: Why? Why?

When I saw this movie "Schindler’s list" I burst into tears the whole movie along. I couldn’t stop crying. German born Oscar Schindler, to more than 1200 Jews Schindler was all that stood between them and death at the hands of the Nazis. But he remained true to his Jews, the workers he referred to as his children. It reminded me about St. Paul. He was a persistent persecutor of Early Christians, until his experience on the Road to Damascus which brought about his conversion to faith in Jesus as the Christ and Son of God.

Now after 10 years I realized why my family had this terrible car accident in Poland. It was in Poland where the Nazi regime committed this terrible crime against the Jewish race. YES, now I know my family and I had to pay indemnity what Germany did to the Jewish people. In my life I always wanted to serve and love the Jewish people. In 2001 until 2005 I worked with the "Hebrew Immigrant Aid Society" (HIAS) in Vienna. It was an honour for me to be employed by a Jewish organization.

The past 10 years of my life in the UC has been pretty tough. We have a son who is suffering from Autism, and my daughter Eleonora is still dealing with a trauma, due to the car accident she had in Poland. My eldest son is distant from the UC, because he still thinks why this all happen to our family. 3 years ago I got hit by a car. Fortunately, I got not injured. But if, I could have been paralyzed. Looking back I can say "someone" wanted to kill/destroy our whole family. Our family is still recovering from all this.

Warmest greetings,
Wolfgang Schawaller

My dear American brother Sgt. Justin Harding (US Army)

In Northern Baghdad, IRAQ, Marines from 2nd Battalion 5th Marines Regimental Combat Team Five (RCT 5) 1st MARDIV out of Camp Pendleton Claif., pause for a routine stop during a convoy. Sgt. Justin M Harding from Trenton, N.J. interacts with a local civilian during the convoy.
Vienna, November 2006

Dear All,
Everyone is given different battles to fight. Mother Theresa gave her life to the poorest of the poor. Raoul Wallenberg put his life on the line to save Jews. Joan of Arc took her sword to save France. Justin Harding became a marine to serve God, True Parents and Country. Such a heart!

Warm wishes,
Wolfgang Schawaller


A letter addressed to the Unification Church members:

Dear brothers and sisters,

Sort of surprised at all the hoopala about me on the HHI website. I have mentioned the following statements to clarify why I am in this current mission for God and True Parents.
I would just like to add I would love to go to a Third World Nation and teach Divine Principle. In fact when I retire and the kids are on their way (God Willing) Yuriko and I intend to do just that based off of the pension and fundraising. Yuriko wants to go to Africa and I have relatives on my father's side who were missionaries in Uganda - so a small foundation exists for us there!!! That fact the some are judgemental or critical of my mission leads me to feel that it is the correct way.

I started following God and Jesus in 1988 and True Parents in 1989. I jumped into an MFT van after buying 2 for 10 laser prints with a bible, a backpack, and two changes of under wear. Had 2 day workshop in the New York Center and then 7 day upstate somewhere with Nate Windman as my lecturer. Flew out to Macama Hill and completed 21 and 40 Actionizing in Oakland. Ashley and Susan Croisswaithe, Neville were big guides for me there. I worked hard for Dr. Seuk and Mr. Aoki on National MFT East and West Coast. I also did stints witnessing in Berkeley, San Fransisco, and New York centers. I ended up in Boston CARP. My central figures Mr. Igarashi and Mr. Takeda brought me as a candidate to the Holy Blessing in 1992 Seoul, Olympic Stadium. There I was Blessed to Yuriko Tahara.

My mission then changed back and forth with a newly formed STF in LA under Rev. Tim Henning 1-2 new STF 2nd Gen, Russian bros & sisters. All 13 of us lived in Tim's house several blocks away from CAL State; LA.Jin Hun Nim (Tiger Park's eldest) took over CARP America and I united completely under him with Michael Balcom, Robert Kittle, Howard Self, and George Kazakos all kept in line by Sam Am Moon shi!. We pioneered the STF program, the Pure Love Alliance 21 city tour, and the World CARP Academy in Boulder, CO. I remember winning 2nd place in a Lecturing Competition on a True God's Day and recieving an award from Jin Hun Nim directly. I love lecturing!

Jin Hun Nim told me win the Student Congress Presidency and establish the PLA and CARP at the University of Bridgeport. This cause quite a ruckus with the elder Blessed Memebers who were working to get UB up and running. I ignored them and just did what I was told. We put brothers and sisters on the Newspaper, Student Congress, and made of our our clubs as we saw fit. I was elected to the President of Student Congress by a platform of Unificationists, Muslims Student Association and small Christian groups we went up against the drinking, partying jocks, CIS partying students, and the gay and lesbian activists. God Blessed us and we won.
The pinacle for me was externally having a PLA protest and being put on three news channels at Larry Flint's Movie. We also had Richard Panzer give a presentation of the Sexual Revolution to over 50 students and a few professors from all walks of campus life. Internally we utillized the Chapel for Pledge and Morning Services and conducted Life of Faith Training for 2nd Gen to include Winter and Spring Break fundraising excursions. All of this was with the support of Rev. Gavin Hamnet and then Rev. Chris Hempowicz, Josie Hauer, and Dr. Chin of UB administration. Can you imagine CARP had an office, a budget provided by Student Congress, and a meeting room! I was riding high too high.

Yuriko has given birth to Mathew April 2, 1997 and Reyna in June 19th 1998.
We had the oppurtunity to meet with Jin Seung Nim (Dr. Bo Hi Pak's son) trying to make a balance between 2nd Gen college studies, life of faith CARP, PLA, Church Tradition Korean, Japanese, and Western members - it was a whirlwind of restoration taking place a UB.
I was searching for my role. I thought about going to UTS or back to work with STF and I even had a job offer teaching at the New Eden Peace Academy run by Nora Spurgin and her husband. My heart felt called to help support, raise, and educate 2nd gen to the formula course or life of faith not just going to on to earn a degree and get lost and mixed up with the Canaanites!!!

I graduatied with a degree (Bachelor of the Arts) in Literature and Civilization with a minor in Education - a Magna Cum Laude Status. After long prayers, many confessions, and consulting, and talks with so many elders in the UB community. I came to the conclusion I needed to go down to the bottom and start a new - like True Father. I needed to build my own financial foundation and maintain Heavenly Tradition in any circumstances God would lead me in. So I went down to the bottom Marine Corps infantry Recruit Harding "Maggot reporting as ordered Senior Drill Instructor Sergeant Groton."
In the summer of 1998 I joined the United States Marine Corps "God, Corps,
and Country."
I signed on my contract "to serve God and my Nation" as reason for joining. I went to Parris Island for 3 months. My Drill Instructor tortured me about my reason for joining. In a bit of a nervous angry flinch one day on line in Squad Bay. I shouted out the reply to the D.I. question "Why are you here Harding" "Sir, this recruit is on a mission from God Sir!!!" He shocked me when he placed my Eagle, Globe, and Anchor in my hand and promoted me from Recruit Status to a Private in the Marines by leaning over and whispering in my ear "Don't ever forget the mission God gave you!"
I have been serving in 2nd Battalion, 5th Marine Regiment, Weapons Company,
Mobile Assault Platoon 2 for the last 9 years. I started out as an E-1 Private in the billet of Anti-Tank Humvee Driver. Which sounds a lot more glorious then it is.
I have done 2 deployments to Okinawa, Japan (one in 2000 & 2006) and visited Thailand, Guam, South Korea, and the Phillipines where we carried out a Humanitarian Mission digging out the bodies of a village of 1500 who were covered in a 30 foot mudslide. We provided food, medical aid, and re-built bridges and roads over a three week period. And our Chaplain "adopted" the 400 High School student whose parents and siblings were all killed as they were at school when the disaster happened. We did all we could for these kids in that time period. 8 Marines and I covered in mud walked to the base of the land slide.

A cross with many lit candles was planted there as in custom in Leyte, Phillipines. We came to the position of attention and a Marine whaled out "Amazing Grace" on his bagpipes that filled the whole valley while we saluted the newly Ascended. About 200 people, villagers, police, Phillipine Army, Red Cross, and other UN workers all gathered and bowed heads.
And I have done three deployments to Iraq and Kuwait. The first was in Operation Iraqi Freedom 1 2003, Special Purpose MAGTF Camp Fox 2004, and last to OIF 2 in the city of Ar Ramadi, Al Anbar Providence.2004-2005.
To clarify the record:
I am a E-6/Staff Sergeant 0369 (infantry) an will be leading about 30 to 40
marines in the role of a Platoon Sergeant on my next deployment to Iraq in
March of 2007.
My Awards ranked in order of highest to lowest seniority in military cirlces are the following.
Bronze Star with Combat "V" valor for action upon contact with insurgents in Ar Ramadi. One Purple Heart - wounds recieved in Ar Ramadi 2 Navy & Marince Corps Achievement Medals one with combat "V" contact with enemy on the way to Baghdad. Combat Action Ribbon - OIF 1 Presidential Unit Citation - !st Marine Division Award by President for OIF 1.Navy Unit Citation, Merritorious Unit Citation - presented for exercises with Navy about the USS Beleau Wood, USS Germantown, USS Fort McHeanry, and USS Essex. Good Conduct Ribbon with one star - denotes 6 years of faithful service without any disciplinary actions. (should be getting my third this November) National Defense Ribbon - Operation Enduring Freedom being in military during time of war.
Korean National Defense Medal - serving in South Korean in support of DMZ for 30 days or more.
Iraq Campaign Medal, Global War on Terrorism: Service and Expeditionary
Medals - for deployments to Middle East.
Overseas Deployment ribbon with three stars.
In addition, I have several Letters of Appreciation for volunteer work with the YMCA and a Certificate of Commendation for work in the humanitarian mission in Leyte, Phillipines.
I know it is a long story but, this is to clarify things. I joined the USMC in order to go down to the bottom. I felt I was riding too high meeting with True Children, President of the Student Congress, CARP leader, etc. I wanted also to start my own family foundation in terms of finances and tribal messiahship. My internal "Mission for God" that I never was given a chance to explain to the tortureous drill instructors is "to go to Haran, a land not my own for 21 years" and bring back a family, wealth, and tribe.
I am currently on Year 9 on my personal 21 year course I set up for myself
supporting True Parents in this Sixth Year of the Cheong Il Guk! Once I make the offerring (or if God decides to take my life as an offerring prior to the 21 year mark) I will pray to go on to the next step. It might just be going to a third world nation and witnessing. As the Imams say "In Shallah" (may God's will be done)

Just want to put the records straight - I don't kill for George Bush, the President of the United States and my current Commander in Chief. I have heard of Habilburton but, don't understand the analogy to them.
Yes, I have killed other men in combat. However, I never opened up on a person without trying to diffuse the situation. I set this example to my marines even though I have been ridiculed by some cowboys out there who shoot first and then ask question.

To the brother or sister who made these comments about my choice of life of faith. Please email or me. President Bush and Haliburtron don't rule the Universe. God, True Parents, and the actions of Central Blessed Families do. Let us be careful and sincere in what we say or do.
Mansai!!!

Justin Harding
30,000 Couples brother

PS Happy Thanksgiving and please forgive the strange grammar and spelling
mistakes haven't had time to proof read it all or spell check it.